Catch up

This tofu soup, one of my new favorite soups!!! It was sooo yummy!

Mah, so apparently I haven't posted anything since January... Oops? Haha nah, everything has been kinda busy, but everything's settled again and I'm no longer feeling lazy. So here goes!

This past week was an amazing one I think. One of the best of my life! Haha no, but it was one of the best weekends! Friday was normal until that evening when the high school girls invited me to go four wheeling with them, I accepted and I had a ton of fun! I rode with one of the girls, and it was just incredibly fun! I then got to spend the night at one of the girls house and since it was Friday the 13th, we watched scary movies, and then Saturday night we watched another scary movie after the Valentine's Day dinner at the school. So, just a really fun weekend!

Tomorrow I might be learning how to drive the four wheeler, if the weather is nice. So yay for that!

I'm gonna be better at driving a four wheeler than a car! (Hint hint, I want a four wheeler for my birthday! Forget the car, I can steal Austins!) 

I'm also really excited, cause I got my first pay! It was kinda like looking at it, "I'm an adult now. Or at least a working teenager!" Which is the best thing for a teenager to do, work! Build up that good work ethic! Haha

I'm happy, and I'm getting use to it. I'm happy at home, but it's kinda like I'm finally collecting myself together, and putting all the crap I've dealt with four the past almost 5 years behind me. I'm done being a slave to depressing thoughts and emotions. I'm finding a way to finally meld all my different me's into one me. Mah! I'm being so confusing! But I think the point is, I'm getting everything together and I'm not using normal glue this time and tape. I'm using extreme sticky glue and duct tape. I've lost my point again! Haha

Austin recently told me he's proud of me, one of the moments in my life where I actually started crying because to hear it from him, who I love and look up to, meant so much. That was just oozing little sister adoration. I'm gonna stop now, can't build up his ego!

I realize now that although it's hard, I need to stop looking back at my mistakes. I need to stop it and just look forward. I've applied that, and I think one of my newest mottos is just think before you speak, say what you believe, never falter, and look forward. Cause I've said things that I think have upset people, just saying things that I think and believe, and I can't look back on that. I just need to look forward, and trust the Lord will show me a way to fix things. I've decided just to leave it in the Lords hands, because I'm not capable, and He is more than capable. 

I'm done being deep! I gotta try sleeping again, and so I'm off to listen to Glenn Beck and drift of to dream land where I'll hopefully finally figure out the meaning of life with BVB. =D