School

Once again, I was really proud of this essay! It was about fear and love, and which one I believed wpuld be the winner in a battle. Enjoy, cause I enjoyed writing it!

All emotions have an opposing emotion, sadness, and happiness, joyful, and sorrowful. For every positive emotion, there is a negative. However, this doesn’t mean that they are even on the playing field, in fact, it’s quite the opposite.

As seen throughout history, fear and violence accompany each other. The Salem witch trials, they were fearful, and violence took place. People were afraid of women gaining voting rights, and violence happened. People didn’t understand Mormonism, people were afraid, and violence was prominent

People will most likely react violently to something they do not understand, and come to fear. Fear is an ugly emotion that like anger violence latches onto.

There is an opposing emotion to these negative of course, and in Matthew 5:44 it speaks of it.

“But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you.”

Love is the opposing emotion, and with love to oppose violence, there is understanding.

Love is what the gospel preaches, what Christ testified of! Understanding the world around us, and loving all, even our enemies!

This emotion is an enemy of the Devil, who despises all things good and would rather the world be a fearful and violent place, instead of the utopia Christ preaches when speaking of love and understanding.

Because fear and violence is an emotion of the Devil, then the outcome of a battle between these emotions positive and negative is obvious, because as the movies, books, comics, TV shows, and church leaders always say, Good will always win.

In the end, the Devil will lose, so of course, the emotions that he advocates will lose, because what Christ preaches will win, what the Lord has commanded will win. Love and understanding will win, because the heroes always beat the villains.

Going through the past

I was looking through past school assignment, found this speech I had to write! The assignment was to write a speech about something I'm passionate about, so I really enjoyed this assignment! My assignment is below... I'm really proud of it!

The concept of this speech I suppose would be the condemnation of this main stream society which has accepted things like sexual exploitation, drugs, and violence. This society is deteriorating quickly and people have to stand up against it.

Society is deteriorating quickly, and we must not allow this to continue! We must stand strong against this enemy, who only seeks to enslave us! Our forefathers fought for our freedom! Freedom for mankind, yet you now seek to become a slave to this ugly society. Why would any man or woman choose to give up their freedom and become slaves to the demand of everything ugly and evil in this world? You may gain pleasure or even happiness, but it is not real, and it will not last.

You will pay for it, and you will regret it. Why would you allow this? Why would you allow yourself to suffer greatly later on? You allow it because you no longer care. It is time to start caring again, care about the Lord. Care about goodness, love, life, and righteousness. It is time to stop sin, to stop condoning it. If we give up fighting and accept sin, then we will be held accountable for not saying anything.

Stand up, and hold your ground. It will be hard, but it will be worth it. You will find true happiness that will last for eternity. Suffer for a short time, and have true happiness for eternity, or have fake happiness for a short time, and suffer? This is your choice. Make the right decision. Because once you go down one road, it will be hard to turn back.

I am warning you, you have been informed. It is now up to you to take up the mantel, to fight for what is good and right. We must regain the freedom that righteousness brings. This sin that society supports will only chain you, and make you a slave to sin, a prisoner to the devil. Rise up and stand against this evil, speak of the truth of freedom. Become an advocate for righteousness, and you will gain what many have sought for, true joy and happiness.

Catch up

This tofu soup, one of my new favorite soups!!! It was sooo yummy!

Mah, so apparently I haven't posted anything since January... Oops? Haha nah, everything has been kinda busy, but everything's settled again and I'm no longer feeling lazy. So here goes!

This past week was an amazing one I think. One of the best of my life! Haha no, but it was one of the best weekends! Friday was normal until that evening when the high school girls invited me to go four wheeling with them, I accepted and I had a ton of fun! I rode with one of the girls, and it was just incredibly fun! I then got to spend the night at one of the girls house and since it was Friday the 13th, we watched scary movies, and then Saturday night we watched another scary movie after the Valentine's Day dinner at the school. So, just a really fun weekend!

Tomorrow I might be learning how to drive the four wheeler, if the weather is nice. So yay for that!

I'm gonna be better at driving a four wheeler than a car! (Hint hint, I want a four wheeler for my birthday! Forget the car, I can steal Austins!) 

I'm also really excited, cause I got my first pay! It was kinda like looking at it, "I'm an adult now. Or at least a working teenager!" Which is the best thing for a teenager to do, work! Build up that good work ethic! Haha

I'm happy, and I'm getting use to it. I'm happy at home, but it's kinda like I'm finally collecting myself together, and putting all the crap I've dealt with four the past almost 5 years behind me. I'm done being a slave to depressing thoughts and emotions. I'm finding a way to finally meld all my different me's into one me. Mah! I'm being so confusing! But I think the point is, I'm getting everything together and I'm not using normal glue this time and tape. I'm using extreme sticky glue and duct tape. I've lost my point again! Haha

Austin recently told me he's proud of me, one of the moments in my life where I actually started crying because to hear it from him, who I love and look up to, meant so much. That was just oozing little sister adoration. I'm gonna stop now, can't build up his ego!

I realize now that although it's hard, I need to stop looking back at my mistakes. I need to stop it and just look forward. I've applied that, and I think one of my newest mottos is just think before you speak, say what you believe, never falter, and look forward. Cause I've said things that I think have upset people, just saying things that I think and believe, and I can't look back on that. I just need to look forward, and trust the Lord will show me a way to fix things. I've decided just to leave it in the Lords hands, because I'm not capable, and He is more than capable. 

I'm done being deep! I gotta try sleeping again, and so I'm off to listen to Glenn Beck and drift of to dream land where I'll hopefully finally figure out the meaning of life with BVB. =D

Family, and such.

I'm really missing my younger siblings, and my adorable little cousins. I've realized this, I love kids. I just absolutely love big families, because I can't imagine there not being a lot of kids, because I'm use to there being kids everywhere, and I really wouldn't want it any other way. 

I talked about this with Austin, marriage and families stuff like that, and I'm of the same mind set as him I think. I believe that when you find that person who is the one, then don't wait, go for it! Get married becuase life is short, and who knows when that time is up?

I have my whole life ahead of me, and I know that it was the right decision for me to take this opportunity to go to Alaska. Because now I'm eager to do new things, and I'm all for doing anything that the Lord wills. Actually, watch as I'm called to serve my mission in the states can in like Nebraska. Ouch... Not saying I've got something against Nebraskins, it's just... Nebraska makes West Kansas look like Disney Land. That's all I'm saying...

Okay, but seriously, I miss my family! I really miss everyone, and I miss my adorable little cousins and siblings. 

So.. I got new cousins! That's seriously what it feels like, being here, it's like being surrounded by cousins and stuff. It's just awesome. Like for example, yesterday I talked with Mr. Gooden about politics! I was listening to Glenn Beck while cleaning and we started talking about Senator Ted Cruz (From Texas) and about Hilary Clinton and just the Presidental election, and it was an interesting conversation! I just love talking about politics. And I talked with Mrs. Gooden about religion, and what a non-orthodox cultural Mormon is. That was a really interesting conversation! It's just nice. It's not like home, but there are things from home here that help me. I'm going to be happy to go home, but I'm going to be sad to leave them! 

FOOD

I've discovered something... I like traveling. By plane, because that's my favorite part! So, I honestly just kinda wanna travel everywhere... Waiting to receive word that an eccentric long forgotten long lost great aunt has left me all her vast wealth which I will then spend to travel... Maybe... Haha

So, the food I have here is pretty much a mix of Korean food, Bush food, and normal food. So it's pretty interesting. I've actually shamed the family name... Prepare yourself for this... I had a vegan burger and tofu sauce for my pasta. Yes, I had tofu and vegan food. It was all really good though! I've tried more foods this past week than I have my entire life! I had tofu, vegan burgers, fish burger, moose and beans, kale, and I had chicken noodle soup, except it was not normal for me cause I saw these chickens plucked and gutted. It was an interesting experience!

So it's just been an interesting time, cause every evening I'm having something I've never had before. I'm also getting use to this look I get whenever I say I've never had something, also the words,

 "Never?" "Ever?" "Really?" and it's just like, yes really. Never had moose. never had tofu, NO I HAVE NEVER HAD NUTELLA. I haven't had a lot of things... But by the time I come home, I would have tried a lot of things, and strengthened my skill on literally the best board game EVER. Ticket to Ride, just the best game.

Noise

It's really pretty, but I think a huge thing that hit me, especially at night, is just how quiet it is. How empty... I admit, I kinda just miss the sounds of Olathe, of just plain noise. So, I'm getting use to sleeping in just kinda silence. It's weird, but I'm getting use to it!

My official room

So I've finally moved into my official room! No more living out of my suitcase! Yay!! 

So I've just spent the day just getting settle into the room and decorating. In planning to kinda just cover the wall with quotes scriptures and random things! So it's pretty different from my beautiful Americana decorations at home! 

But seriously, I'm fairly proud at myself, especially considering the materials I have! So that's what was done today, besides of course doing church and some scripture study! 

I'll put up pictures of the school tomorrow, it's kinda big, but I don't know how to describe it! Just have to wait till later! 

Bye~!